I feel like I have a million things going on at all times, and this blog has taken a little bit of a back seat, which frustrates me. But I’ve been working on some things behind the scenes that are working toward some professional goals of mine, which is exciting.
It’s just been another thing to balance.
Sleep continues to be a struggle. The baby still wakes up about every 2-3 hours. He’s looking for comfort and refuses to take a pacifier, so that leaves me. After he finally went down last night around 8 pm, he awoke again at 11 pm, 1 am, 3 am, and 5 am, and finally woke for the day at 7 am. Just typing that made me exhausted.
I’m convinced I will have dark under eye circles forever.
Babies are a funny thing. There is no simple solution to get them to sleep longer. Everyone tells me to let him cry it out. But I don’t think my mama heart is strong enough for that. I’ve tried and I always cave. When all I want to do is get as much sleep as possible, I do what I have to to get him to sleep so I can sleep.
And we seem to be in a stormy period with the three year old. He’s been much more challenging – whiny, restless, prone to tantrums – which only adds to my exhaustion. Parenting a three year old is no joke. I find my patience wearing thin when he’s at a stage where I should grant him more. I constantly have to remind myself that he’s three, not thirteen. He’s still figuring things out.
I remind myself that we’re just in this difficult season of our lives where all we have the energy for is work and taking care of our littles. The chores stack up quickly, hobbies are pretty much non-existent for ourselves, and my husband and I can go days without sharing an adult conversation because we are too busy taking care of our kids and immediately pass out when they do.
It’s a whole new world. But one that will change.
I often look at my three year old and can’t believe how fast he’s grown. It seems like only yesterday that I was rocking his tiny body to sleep.
So I know that we won’t always be at this exhausting point in our lives. But right now, in the thick of it, it seems like it will last forever.