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Back to my Roots

Back to my Roots
Casandra Banuelos via Mixkit

For all its awfulness, 2020 has flown by for my family. 

I started freelancing full-time in January, and then when the pandemic hit, we all kind of fell into a new routine. 

I opened the Maker Mama shop just a few months ago, and I have to be honest that it isn’t doing as well as I had hoped. Let me be clear, I’m not looking to rake in loads of cash; that’s not its purpose. 

I started the Maker Mama shop to support other artist mamas – sell their beautiful art and craft work, and get their names out there. And while I do feel like I’ve made strides in connecting the art mom community, I have a lot of work to do. 

Creating art is not my full-time job. It is simply a hobby that I’m clawing to get back to. I don’t sell art to make a living. But there are some moms out there that do. Especially in this time of Covid-19, selling their work could have ramped up out of necessity. 

I want to connect with those moms to make sure they are getting as much exposure to their work as possible. 

As I’ve been contemplating the past few weeks on how to help support my maker mamas even more, I’ve had to acknowledge how and why this blog started. 

I started this blog almost four years ago as an outlet for my emotions of becoming a parent. In so many ways I felt alone. My best friends didn’t express the struggles that I was feeling as a new mom. And it seemed as though every aspect of my being was wiped out and replaced with motherhood. 

As someone who has always been more comfortable expressing myself through writing that speaking, I started The Maternal Canvas as a therapy for me. 

That said, I always wanted it to be a place of community. A place other moms could come to and not feel alone. 

So, as I look ahead to the future of this site, I plan to circle back to sharing more of myself here. People subscribed to my blog to learn about my life and I realize now that I very abruptly just cut that off. 

I also want to open this site up for guest posts from other women who have felt struggles in their motherhood journey. 

I am also contemplating starting a podcast. Something completely unrelated to being an art mom, but something very prevalent through my life. If you haven’t listened to the podcast, Something Was Wrong, I highly recommend it. It really centers on the survivors of emotional abuse and covers topics such as gaslighting. Season 3 really struck a nerve with me, as I have dealt with someone very much like “Patty” my entire life. Seriously, check it out.

If I actually start a podcast, it would focus on the adult children of narcissistic parents. I’ve recently come to realize that this is a lot more common than I ever believed. Again, something to serve as healing for me, while connecting with others. Stay tuned if that will actually come to be.

What I really struggle with is being put into a box. As someone who is a freelance content writer and blogger, finding and working solely in your “niche” has always been said as the most fruitful path to success. 

Yeah, that’s just not me.

Life is just too dynamic and complex for that. So if you joined me back in the day when I was talking about my post-partum anxiety, I’ve certainly switched gears since then. Or if you came here to check out some art, you will find much more than that. 

Whatever brought you here, thank you. 

As I likely won’t be writing a new post before the end of the year, I wish you all a very happy and safe holidays and a bright new year!

See you in 2021.

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